How Survivors of a Plague Can Heal

Survivors of the AIDS epidemic bear invisible scars, for which community can be a balm.

BY David Artavia

July 03 2013 4:00 AM ET

A still from How to Survive a Plague

As the first AIDS generation grows older and its experiences are relegated to the back pages of history books, survivors try to find meaning in why they’re still here and their friends are not. There has never been a real answer for them. They bear invisible scars, hidden beneath rivers of tears, that refuse to heal. But to pretend they don’t exist can only magnify the grief that survivors have desperately tried to suppress.

In a sense, survivors have been forced back into the closet, too embarrassed or afraid to speak about survivors’ guilt or post-traumatic stress disorder and with no community to be in. During the time when AIDS was seen as a certain death sentence, people with the disease and their supporters took it upon themselves to build their own communities, without which advocates like Peter Staley would never have been able to demand proper attention to the epidemic.

Thanks to films like David France’s Oscar-nominated How to Survive a Plague, a new generation can see what it was like during the building of these communities, highlighting how activists forced government, corporations, and organizations to address the crisis. ACT UP was one of many groups that took the problem into their own hands, with activists Larry Kramer, Mark Harrington, Spencer Cox, Garance Franke-Ruta, Mathilde Krim, and Staley rising above the crowd. Even to this day, they won’t call themselves heroes.

“I consider the movement heroic,” Staley said at a screening of the film for Collective Effect at AIDS Project Los Angeles. “I consider it a truly communal moment. The power that any of us individually was able to break through only happened on the foundation of community. If we had acted independently, we would have gotten nothing done. We are part and parcel of America’s great social justice movements. They might not have liked us at the time, but it disturbed them and it made them uncomfortable to know that their citizens were being left to die. We definitely shook them up in that regard.”

It could be argued that such community has been slipping away over the last decade. With gay ghettos decreasing in importance and gay and lesbian centers becoming less central to gay people’s lives than they used to be, have we become victims of our own success? Staley, considered by some to be a gay Martin Luther King, went on to say that by demanding we be integrated into the American fabric, over time, we lost our own sense of community.

“I think we have to create institutions that bring us together and start conversation and demand community. We have been working to do that in New York, and I think if you want community, you have to fight for it,” Staley added.

The refuge we once had to talk to our brothers and sisters who are like us, and share our experiences with HIV to link generations and expand awareness now seem to be mere memories. So where does that leave the survivors?

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