I should have said no when I said yes.
I could have waited a little longer.
I would have had a better time.
Can I do it all over again?
What if I would have said "I do not know?"
If I only knew now what I knew today.
I should not have forgotten to pray.
Now I have to re-think this whole episode.
Do I go home?
Or do I tell her to put back on her clothes?
I am lying here contemplating.
Waiting ...
Wanting to see if she will make the right decision for me.
My mind tells me to put on this condom.
My body says "it does not feel real."
She gets into bed.
My heart skips a beat.
Kisses my chest.
Bites my tongue.
I close my eyes.
Right before she rubs my thumb.
She says "Devin?"
I say "yes, hun."
She says "put on a condom."
Man I feel dumb.
A little numb.
Now it's getting hectic.
Yet, protected.
Super erect.
Man, this is safer sex.
Robinson is a South Florida'based activist who focuses on educating young people and African-Americans about HIV and AIDS through performance art and his acclaimed one-man performances, which have been staged throughout the United States and overseas. He also is the founder of the group AIDS Awareness Poets. His work has been profiled in national magazines as well as on MTV, NBC, UPN, and BET television networks and on National Public Radio. Robinson is working on a film version of his one-man show God, Me...HIV? which he plans to screen on World AIDS Day.
